Today has been a roller coaster, by which I mean the last 36 hours awake have put many hard to deal with things. I was nearly overwelmed by a work project, and often times I had to stop and process some of the trauma of the past few months. Then I had my last session for awhile with this therapist, and that was emotional.
Now this. I had/have this dream of owning a particular piece of land. The problem thus far has been financing it, as well as some other practical limitations. I’m trying to have faith, put the thing in God’s court.
It’s like an old scar that itches, because I first had this vision of the property 9 years ago. There were times that I was frantic to make this thing happen, coming with all kinds of wild schemes just looking for something that could work. There was a time I was 100% confident that I was going to get there, now older and possibly wiser I’m not sure. I’ve got plenty of desires, chances are some aren’t going to work out. Simply by process of elimination, some things have to fail and some things have to succeed, right?
Anyway, just feeling lost, it’s been a tough couple of months.