i want it all to end. i have a mom and stepdad that use to abused me in more ways then one until i moved out. a dad and stepmom that only pretend they care when really im the last they think about. my friends. hate me. use me. hurt me. a husband that im not sure about anymore. was it really love or only lust? and my brothers…..they still live with my mom and stepdad. i dont talk to them but i miss them with all of my heart. i basically raised the eldest. i taught him how to count and his colors. “how many red cars are there?” id ask and hed count the red cars. the youngest had a heart problem so i didnt get to spend much time with him. i was so scared of hurting him. their birthdays are coming up. the end of may and beginning of june. i cant handle all this pain anymore. this constant feeling of my heart being crushed. i need out now.
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You should contact your brothers. What ever might keep you from doing that you should seriously consider ignoring and just contact them. Give them a chance and see where it goes. Don’t be afraid to let them.
Just my two cents.
I’m sorry you are feeling this way. I know feelings like these as well and I hate it.
i really wish i could but they are just little kids. the oldest one is turning 10. i cant do anything until they are 16. i would love to hug them again more then anything. its been 5 years.
I’m sorry.
If you want a friend I’m always here.
Bayaud on kik but I’m going to download discord since people seem to prefer it.