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by OldCow

My mom is dead.  My dad is dead.  My sister hates my guts and won’t speak to me.  My husband is a self-centered narcissist that only cares for himself.  I have NOTHING to live for.  My job is horrible and it pays badly.  Every time I spend a penny I have to think about how long I have to work at my horrible low-paying job to pay for that sandwich, or that pair of socks.  I have nothing.  No prospects, no money, no hope, no friends, no family, and no hope that it will ever get any better.  I’m 58 and my life is over.  Please let it end soon.



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Soda 5/5/2019 - 1:56 am

Not sure how it works in your area but here in Canada the senior’s pension plan is fairly decent and you’re only 7 yrs away from receiving it. That’s really not that long from now. So long as both yourself and your spouse get it, then your needs would be easily met.

Despite not having family in your life, there are many things to enjoy in life. Many older people live very contented lives despite not having a lot, including relationships.

As for being short of money, consider going on social assistance, if your income is below the poverty line, they might assist you. However, I know there isn’t much of a social safety net in the US like there is in Canada. You can also take a second job if you have the time for it.

If you’ve decided not to go on with living, then you should do your research on effective methods. If you’re in Canada, then you can look into euthanasia.

I’m in my mid-40s and I think if my life doesn’t get a lot better by the time I’m your age, then I will probably end it also since we all die one day anyway. And for me, there’s no reason to go on if I’m not truly happy.

The best parts of my life are really behind me now, though I’m trying hard to improve my situation now so that I can get back some of what I missed out on.

For now, things seem to be getting better for me so I am motivated to keep going. Hopefully, in a few years, I’ll be in a good place compared to my state right now.

Hope Dream Love 5/5/2019 - 3:54 pm

What you said about cpp is not completely true. It depends on your job. And yes I also live in Canada. I currently work a job that doesn’t give me a cpp. And even so it would only be a percentage of what you make so to actually have enough money to live and retire without problems you need a good job. It really depends on a lot of things.

OldCow 7/11/2019 - 11:31 pm

I don’t live in Canada. I live in the US in a place that is full of angry young people who hate old people.

Cause of Death: Suicide 5/5/2019 - 11:49 am

Hello there. I am 25 so wanted to say something about our generational gap. How did you like to be 25? Were you happy then? When did you start thinking about suicide? I had a very bad life to me no way to get out other than suicide. No friend, no family, no money, greed and insanity… I was supposed to kill myself when I was 18. I’ve been faking it since then. I never anticipated living this long, I know I wasn’t supposed to live this long.

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