Sobering up

I don’t know what’s gotten into me lately but I like it. I am such a nervous wreck usually but lately I’ve been able to keep my cool. I recently stopped drinking. Its been 4 days so far. I know it’s not long but its a step in the right direction. I was drinking every day for 4 years and some of this year. The odd thing about this is that I didn’t go through withdrawal after going cold turkey. I don’t even care what people think of me anymore….at least not a ridiculous amount. I still treat people kindly and with respect but now I don’t take myself too seriously anymore and so that helps me be happy. I suppose I learned something from my alcohol abuse. I learned that nobody’s opinion of me really actually affects me in any way most often. And so I sort of kept this part of my old drunk self. Its almost as if it was all just one giant experiment. I learned how to stop overanalyzing my mistakes and shortcomings as well as how people perceive me. But I also learned why I should quit drinking. Its because the negatives outweigh the positives. It took me 4 years to realize that I’m not the center of the universe and that it’s okay to make mistakes and laugh at yourself. It’s okay if I’m not the tallest, rich, most athletic, most well spoken human. All that matters is that we continue bettering ourselves for ourselves and those we truly care about like family and friends. Although I must say that I’m not completely quitting on drinking. I’ll still have a drink or two on special occasions like parties. I won’t demonize alcohol. I will however demonize the abuse of it. I don’t need to use it as a crutch anymore and it feels pretty good. No more heartburn, vomiting, headaches, or dizziness. It feels awesome and so energetic to be sober again. It’s time to move on and grow some more. Come at me again life! I’ll keep swinging until I’m dead so what’s next?!