General by SwimmingPearls 6/27/2019 written by SwimmingPearls 6/27/2019Im tired of being so queerish. Im 100% aware of my oddness and sometimes y just beg for being like a normal person.So anxious and annoying … 4 comments 0EmailRelated posts 5/24/2020 5/24/2020Acceptance? 5/24/2020Site visitor for 5 years, this is my... 5/24/2020Again 5/24/2020 5/24/2020Window to my soul 5/23/2020all blank 5/23/2020High Hopes 5/23/2020 5/23/20204 comments rocketman 6/27/2019 - 11:19 pmBeing like a normal person Is safe but boring. Log in to Reply Soda 6/28/2019 - 4:47 amWell it’s more about people you’d fit in with. By ‘queer’ I’m assuming that you’re gay or just feel like an outsider?There are gay/queer communities you could join and there are gay clubs as well and you’d probably find more people like yourself. Log in to Reply headupunderdarkcloud 6/28/2019 - 11:52 pmTo carry at least a little madness about your soul, so much better than stale and too careful. A bit of oddness is great, to be celebrated Log in to Reply Cause of Death: Suicide 6/29/2019 - 2:11 amLol I’m a homosexual. But I’m more suicidal than homosexual. I’ve always been homosexual, but I was supposed to commit 7 years ago. I was looking forward to it more than anything in my life.. I planned it for 8 years Lol. I am upset I am still alive, nothing good has happened it has been the same stupid shit as I expected (except a bit dumber than what I formerly anticipated) – maybe due to my sexuality.I am homosexual, but it doesn’t matter because I am pretty much dead already haha. I’m not actually really interested in a romantic life. But still in saying homosexual, to me it just means I could never enjoy a relationship (romantic, sexual, or even friendship) with the opposite sex. Just like different political opinions, how the Democrats may scare the Republicans and vice verse, I am actually rather afraid of the evil that seems to be the heterosexuals. To me, it is represented by a fish laying thousands of eggs or any species that has an absurd amount of eggs, and the newborns die shortly thereafter anyhow!Just lately in my 20s have I started being treated foul for my sexuality. Usually the sexuality that I am (don’t feel like giving specific details) if they end up being victims, there are a few cases of my sexuality, gender type being raped/murdered around early 20s. I can say I can no longer walk due to a brutal attack. In which the perpetrator cornered me and forced me into penetration. And this did continue to happen 100+ times afterwards. I have a feeling it is some sort of brainwash into conversion therapy maybe by the church members. I am an atheist however, and shun all religion completely, so that could never phase me.I am grateful for the few minuscule good moments I have had, but I don’t want to live in a world like this. Lol. Every day my first thought usually is, I wish I would have killed myself how I had planned to 7 years ago. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribeAllReplies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.