Lol I’m a homosexual. But I’m more suicidal than homosexual. I’ve always been homosexual, but I was supposed to commit 7 years ago. I was looking forward to it more than anything in my life.. I planned it for 8 years Lol. I am upset I am still alive, nothing good has happened it has been the same stupid shit as I expected (except a bit dumber than what I formerly anticipated) – maybe due to my sexuality.
I am homosexual, but it doesn’t matter because I am pretty much dead already haha. I’m not actually really interested in a romantic life. But still in saying homosexual, to me it just means I could never enjoy a relationship (romantic, sexual, or even friendship) with the opposite sex. Just like different political opinions, how the Democrats may scare the Republicans and vice verse, I am actually rather afraid of the evil that seems to be the heterosexuals. To me, it is represented by a fish laying thousands of eggs or any species that has an absurd amount of eggs, and the newborns die shortly thereafter anyhow!
Just lately in my 20s have I started being treated foul for my sexuality. Usually the sexuality that I am (don’t feel like giving specific details) if they end up being victims, there are a few cases of my sexuality, gender type being raped/murdered around early 20s. I can say I can no longer walk due to a brutal attack. In which the perpetrator cornered me and forced me into penetration. And this did continue to happen 100+ times afterwards. I have a feeling it is some sort of brainwash into conversion therapy maybe by the church members. I am an atheist however, and shun all religion completely, so that could never phase me.
I am grateful for the few minuscule good moments I have had, but I don’t want to live in a world like this. Lol. Every day my first thought usually is, I wish I would have killed myself how I had planned to 7 years ago.
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Being like a normal person Is safe but boring.
Well it’s more about people you’d fit in with. By ‘queer’ I’m assuming that you’re gay or just feel like an outsider?
There are gay/queer communities you could join and there are gay clubs as well and you’d probably find more people like yourself.
To carry at least a little madness about your soul, so much better than stale and too careful. A bit of oddness is great, to be celebrated
Lol I’m a homosexual. But I’m more suicidal than homosexual. I’ve always been homosexual, but I was supposed to commit 7 years ago. I was looking forward to it more than anything in my life.. I planned it for 8 years Lol. I am upset I am still alive, nothing good has happened it has been the same stupid shit as I expected (except a bit dumber than what I formerly anticipated) – maybe due to my sexuality.
I am homosexual, but it doesn’t matter because I am pretty much dead already haha. I’m not actually really interested in a romantic life. But still in saying homosexual, to me it just means I could never enjoy a relationship (romantic, sexual, or even friendship) with the opposite sex. Just like different political opinions, how the Democrats may scare the Republicans and vice verse, I am actually rather afraid of the evil that seems to be the heterosexuals. To me, it is represented by a fish laying thousands of eggs or any species that has an absurd amount of eggs, and the newborns die shortly thereafter anyhow!
Just lately in my 20s have I started being treated foul for my sexuality. Usually the sexuality that I am (don’t feel like giving specific details) if they end up being victims, there are a few cases of my sexuality, gender type being raped/murdered around early 20s. I can say I can no longer walk due to a brutal attack. In which the perpetrator cornered me and forced me into penetration. And this did continue to happen 100+ times afterwards. I have a feeling it is some sort of brainwash into conversion therapy maybe by the church members. I am an atheist however, and shun all religion completely, so that could never phase me.
I am grateful for the few minuscule good moments I have had, but I don’t want to live in a world like this. Lol. Every day my first thought usually is, I wish I would have killed myself how I had planned to 7 years ago.