my brothers birthdays have past and tomorrow it is my turn. but…..i dont want it. its nothing but i reminder that i fucked up. i fucked up big time. most people would shrug their shoulders and say so but i have morals. and……but i thought…..thoughts are lies, wtf was i thinking. he treated me like shit. i dont know who i hate more. him or myself. i knew better. im so fucking stupid. i want to stand on the edge of a bridge and look down. i shouldnt have ever….. and now i get to celebrate one of the worse mistakes in my life, just fucking awesome.
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-wishes you luck with getting through your birthdays-
Birthdays are hard.
one of those days. my friend it too busy to say hey and my father is too busy with my half brother to have a conversation with me. doest talk to me in months. doesnt even have me in his life for 18 years and i cant even get 5mins on my bday. im so done with people.
I’m sorry 🙁
its ok…..you just have to look for people who will make time for you. people that deserve to have you in their life. ill find them. 🙂