hello again

It’s been 3 years at the very least since I darkened the doors to these hallowed halls. Never one to trespass for very long, my stay here was brief and … neurotic to say the least. I came here as a child looking for answers to questions I did not know how to ask, because of this I think my wandering mind took more liberties than was justly its due. I will not recount the sins I have committed here because then the post would be too long and require a tl;dr, and besides, for the sins I fail to recount I would just be breaking a few more eggs. No,  this is just a self-reflection.

I came here as a child in the stages of depression as I thought, having just failed a suicide attempt I was firm in my convictions that the problem resided inside of my self. With many years of growth, and time for reflection I have come to the realization that I was indeed not depressed, just lost. Having grown up in my mothers abusive home and then sought shelter in my fathers home only to endure his different form of abuse – I was a child lost on the edge of the abyss but had not yet fallen in. it is of my understanding that having this place as a safe haven through the difficult years, I was able to endure the violations committed against my person and therefore save my own sanity in the process – for this I will eternally be grateful to this site and its users whom I had interacted with.

After leaving here I endured a brief stint of loneliness for I was unused to the quiet hours of the night but eventually I acclimated to it and came to view it as a positive. It took me a while to learn to stand on my own and not lash out at those around me as a way to placate my own misery’s, I managed to figure out how to do it.  At 24 years of age, I finally put back the pieces my parents had chiseled away from me and now I am going to use all I have learned to etch out a place for myself in this modern world.

I don’t know why I came on here today, I was just playing around with my new computer and happened to recollect all of the sleepless nights spent on Tinychat. I suppose it is because it is a laptop with a webcam and I have not owned a webcam in many years that prompted the nostalgia. This is not my grand return ( wouldn’t be grand anyways I am not as famous as the legend KSO, almost as famous but not quite), this is me saying I miss you guys and would like to reconnect and see how you are all doing.  ~ ShatteredGlass

(PS. My grammar still sucks, I don’t know how I haven’t been kicked out of school yet.)

(PSS. I really do not know how I feel about the new format for this website, I’m leaning towards I hate it but I don’t know)