hey there. Guess I’m just another newbie. I just want to explain myself and have someone understand. Usually, I distract myself with youtube, video games, and occasionally people. But there are always those times when everything is boring, and things people said hurt. I’m pathetic. My family loves me so much but I do nothing absolutely nothing to deserve their love. I’m terribly selfish, I’m so lazy, all I do is mope all day like an ungrateful pig. I deserve to feel terrible. I only make things harder for them. Every day, I can’t help but think. So many opportunities to die. Knife, car, bridge, window. Why haven’t I just chosen one by now. I have no idea what I’m doing here, there’s just that part of me that wants to suffer more, and there’s the selfish part of me wanting it all to stop.