I keep spending more money on things that I can’t eat, I keep telling myself I’m going to use them, but it’s now getting overwhelming the number of things I have to do due to this…. Argh I used to enjoy this hobby and I thought just buying lots and having goals to move towards would make this easier but I don’t even want to start because I’m shit, and I know I’m going to continue to be shit unless I start actually doing things but I am paralyzed by being shit…. I hate that, but I should just start daily I enjoy the thing, and I should try to not give much thought to how the thing comes out, it’s fine if it is shit…. You have to fail to improve I know this better than most people do, but it’s still hard to not be discouraged, still really hard horribly hard, especially when I know I’ll never be good at the thing. There’s so many things that I can do well, but nothing I do great. I have never mastered any skill in my life, I’ve only ever become competent. I hate that I just can’t stick with things long enough to actually progress past competence. There’s very few things that people would even start to say I’m good at, and that’s only because they expect very little from me…. I just wish somebody would tell me “that’s good.” without the condition at the end like “that’s good for being something you’ve done.” argh
I just argh, I want to scream but I’m too stupid to scream.
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” I’ve only ever become competent” That is great! I’m like that, mastering skills take time you just haven’t found one you really want to do yet in my opinion. To master a skill it takes a lot of effort time and heart.
I’m competent working on my cars “keeping them running” But I’m not a master mechanic and I don’t have the desire to become one. Your really are hard on yourself.
It’s not good though, people only value something you are good at, if they want competence they can just do it themselves with a few days of practice.
But I do have a lot of stupid little things that I can do, makes for interesting things to do at parties at least…. But I do hate parties.
Well what ever it is that you want to master I hope you find it.
You always make me think, the career I took up was not liked by anyone but externally necessary, my job in part was to play the devils advocate I was disliked by most, being a yes man is much easier, being the devils advocate is a very hard thing to do, For me it wasn’t hard because telling the truth and things people don’t want to hear is being honest. You might notice that in the comments I make, I don’t always go with the flow. My point is this, that’s how I made a living being a necessary evil because I was good at it. Sometimes the things “people only value something you are good at” aren’t fun! 🙂
Devil’s advocate is an enjoyable role, it requires spotting potential problems with things, and noticing blatant flaws. I play the role often but generally with friends…. Isn’t the best thing to do in that situation but I’m also driven to it, it’s enjoyable. xD
and no, most things that make you a valuable person are not fun…. the amount of a fun a person has is not what determines their worth. The things they can do for others is what determines their worth. How much can others exploit you for their own benefit? -_- I hate so many things.
And I love talking with you, you are very sharp!
In the work place before becoming the Devil’s advocate , first you must obtain a position of power otherwise they will get rid of you.
extremely ha ha! I was never good at spelling!! 🙂
Oh by the way, KFC has pot pies 2 for six! I was quite pleased, they were good size fresh and a lot of chicken! 🙂
Sadly I have a vendetta with KFC, they have personally wronged me way too many times. xD
Yeah I’m Italian! The old vendetta thing can be a problem! 🙂 I have vendettas too!
I have never gone to a kfc and had my order be correct…. My father has never managed that either…. Even between 3 kfcs (yes there are 3 here…. well there’s actually more than that but you know)
There’s a reason they must all be attached to A&W (one here it attached to a taco bell, and another is on a fish place, I think ivers? something like that.)
It just upsets me a lot…. -_- and then one person working at one even swore at my father when he was like “my order is wrong.” and she wasn’t able to see how giving him chicken wings is any different than breasts…. He wasn’t even rude…. But I guess it’s a bit understandable since every customer likely has to go and complain about their order…. I was not at all polite after that though. :/ also their food is a bit expensive for my taste xD
True KFC Is rude! I pulled up and was smoking at the drive up, I had a cigarette the kid informed me I had to put it out! Looking at the situation no smoke was even close to the window and it was completely ridiculous! I seen red! And ready to strangle the little fucker! But just as quick I thought he was on camera was told to do this and could lose his job, So I smiled and said of course! Your just doing what your told, and doing a good job! then he said he was sorry, I said no no! Don’t be! At that moment I to myself who’s ever in charge of this place is going to lose customers, OH WELL! It’s not my business. There is no point to this other than there is also a taco joint around the corner they get 6xs more business from me.
Here I don’t think smoking is allowed with-in 50 feet of a building in the public…. So probably can’t smoke going through any drive thru here.
My problem still is kind of somebody’s fault since I’m certain it’s not their company’s policy to always get orders completely wrong. Like that time the person swore at my father for pointing out the error he ordered a breasts and thighs and I think was supposed to be a 10 piece meal with potatoes and gravy and coleslaw with biscuits. all the sides came with it properly but, they included like 5 wings…. Wings…. (I mean only 5 wings, that was all that was in the box…. we’d probably have dealt with it if it was still 10 pieces) and he was just like “uhhhhh I ordered breasts and thighs and you gave me wings.” to be met with a “Well how many pieces are you missing?” and he just sighed and was like “well I need to swap these because it’s not just the quantity that is wrong.” and it escalated from there. With her being like “Well I don’t know what the fuck your problem is.” and then I got very angry at that, the manager stepped in very quickly. And that was my last visit to a kfc…. was not the best experience…. But honestly if that was the only bad experience I would probably have gone back still…. The KFCs here are just bad for some reason.
Nope they are all like that, i had that happen too! Now only a simple order for them, like 2 pot pies I can check it quick, no more several orders they mess it up every time.
I will never go back…. I made that promise and I intend very much so to keep it xD (I can be incredibly stubborn)
Hey being stubborn prevents it from happening again. I make promises I usually keep them as well.
I don’t keep some of mine
Hey I’ve been slacking I have so much work to do on my house I took a break and haven’t gotten back to work on it! I’m developing a laziness decease! Tell me to get back to work!
why not just take a break? xD
Oh I have thanks trust me! Well it’s time for me to complain! I’m trying to tape drywall I’M REALLY BAD AT IT! I’M FUCKING UP LEFT AND RIGHT! I never did it before, I put it all up and now i’m taping the seams OH GOD! I AM SO BAD AT IT! I stopped and have to rethink what the hell i’m doing!!! 🙁
wait the seams of drywall are covered with tape? O.o I never knew that I assumed Spackle was used for that xD
yep you put a coat of drywall compound then tape which is a paper then compound over that, then after it dries you do about 2 or 3 more coats of compound feathering it out till it all flush.