They are growing more and more distant.
I’m as alone as I used to be, but I feel more alone now. Having had close friends has made it hard for me to be alone now.
I also drove my family away from me with a large freak out. I skipped a thing with them recently, I don’t want to be around them.
I should kill myself. I deserve it, people would be happier. I just worry that my cat won’t be okay.
I was so very close to being happy.