im going to start with yes anyone can have depression but im going to be talking about the way people use the word “depression” and the things they complain about.
first the way they use it: “omg im sooooo depressed today” wrong. you are SAD. even better in most cases i find its not even sad its a tantrum because your mommy didnt get you that $2000 phone. if that is your biggest problem in life i dont want to hear it. im happy with a $20 phone that has so many cracks the screen is cutting your fingers (ok i broke the screen myself but i was happy with it. the phone itself still worked. thats good enough right?) By using the word in this sense it is taking away the meaning away from those who are actually depressed. (i guess that basically is both of the problems lol)
i know this person that is in college. and b****ing about it. i would love to go to college. i would love to learn more. it must be awesome to be able to afford that. so shut up and be grateful for once. or this other person that came to me saying she had to throw out a shirt because there was a small hole in it along the seam. instead of throwing out a perfectly good shirt take 2 seconds and fix it. there are people out there that cant go to college. that cant afford clothes let alone new ones. people this day in age only think about themselves. (no definitely not everyone) i find the more money you have the more you b****. what is with that? or am i alone? i know that if i had more money, enough that i could take care of myself with a bit left over, id help others out. it wouldnt be much but itd be something. id give someone without a home a sandwich. or maybe i have clothes that i dont want but are still good. why throw them out when someone else can use them? why are people wasting so much money on things they dont need or throwing stuff out thats still good?
i think i might have digressed lol. im really good at that some times. oops 😛 so where was i? right “fake depression”
i cant be the only depressed person out there that finds that annoying. and (ok a bit more touchy but ill try to explain it the best i can however if someone is offened id like to say ahead of time im sorry but i dont mean the way this is probably going to sound) this doesnt go under fake depression. it is stress. which i get and if someone is currently in this state and would like to explain it to me instead of just saying “thats mean” or im wrong” we can talk. but stress not depression. if you previously have depression then the stress starts to add up that makes sense. but im talking like everything is perfectly fine at first. and then you get laid off. fall behind on a bill. so on and so forth. why not make a list of priorities and start to fill in that hole instead of letting it just get bigger? the main reason im failing to understand it is…..lets start from the beginning. i got kicked out of my house. i got kicked out of school. my husband (friend at the time) almost went to jail. major debt. like he refused for years to even tell me the amount. my landlord picked the worse roofing company in town so you can guess how thats working out. the cats and dog going behind me and destroying everything after i work my ass off to clean it, EVERY TIME. maybe i just sometimes have a functioning depression or i just refuse to lose hope. i have no idea. but i have one problem after another andi just keep saying “its ok we’ll figure it out” and ive previously had depression before i even got kicked out of the house (btw i got kicked out for being an adult which im finding confusing). am i missing something? if i am please tell me. basically my point is yes things happen but instead of looking at it like “oh fuck i lost my job” why not find another job? literally every place in town here is looking to hire ANYONE but everyones complaining there is no work. thats awful you have to be a cashier instead of having your dream job. but when your down on money and falling behind on bills should that really matter.
again if that sounded b****y im sorry im just trying to understand things and im hopeful someone can explain. btw if you try to explain it will probably be met with a bunch of “but why” questions because when i want to know something i like to completely understand it instead of just agreeing and saying ok to something i still dont understand.
i think i digressed again but that first part explained it enough i feel.