No one believes I will make it into medical school so I have kept my application as a secret.
My brother is getting ready to propose to his girlfriend, someone I detest. I would rather die than to go to their wedding and I’m not just saying it for attention.
If there were a choice, I would rather stay single and childless for him NOT to marry her. I would even be willing to make a pact with the devil.
I just graduated graduate school a month ago and my loans are already due. ($80,000 in loans)
Having a hard time studying for the MCAT that takes place in 3 weeks… all I want is to die.
The only couple of real reasons I have to live is that I cannot leave my cat… I don’t think my family will treat her well if I died.
I’ve been sent to a mental ward from a previous attempt and I don’t ever want to go back. Not to mention I don’t have the money to pay.
I just wanted to get out there. I want out.
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Well your couple of reasons aren’t bad, I have cats too, sounds like your under stress but you can do it.
I think all your attention should be on your up coming test. Push all the other crap aside for now.
You do well on the test and then maybe you get into med school. wouldn’t that surprise everyone!!
Best of luck on your test.
If you hate your brothers fiancé that much, probably best that you kind of just eliminate him from your life as much as possible. He’ll become just like her after they’ve been married for a few years. Best to just think you don’t have a brother anymore. Lol. What is wrong with his fiancé? Ugly wh*re? Scary b*tch? Bit of both? Once you get into medical school you’ll be so busy you won’t have time to think about killing yourself. If I wasn’t so suicidal I would have went to medical school but I picked suicide over schooling and missed my chance. I graduated high school in 2012… I was supposed to and hoping to kill myself by gunshot a few months later in the summer of that year. I couldn’t afford the gun and I was followed, put in mental hospital like you. Didn’t help or hurt me (just honestly a giant waste of time) but now I just can’t buy a shotgun I think, so I’ve had to find out other ways to kill myself. I’m just upset I’m still alive when I was truly hoping to die back in 2012…. nothing has happened since them except butt load of nasty children shrieking and running around ……