I haven’t even really done anything that I enjoy for a very long time. I don’t really want to do them, and when I do it’s just not enjoyable at all. I hate this, yesterday I fucked up a thing super bad and want to die even more now, I hate this. My friend is going to be mad at me in August, or I’m going to lie to him and feel horrible about it but he won’t be mad, I guess I should go with the second option. I keep buying things that I’m never going to have the energy to actually ever use. I keep wasting money on fast food because I don’t have the energy to really cook. I have agreed that once I’m out of money in my savings…. at this pace I have maybe 3 years.