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by Dungeon

The worst feeling I have
Is the knowledge that my life means nothing to me
And that it will lead to nothing
I will die with nothing
Like I never existed in the first place
And yet that is the only thought that can settle my uneasyness.
But even with those feelings I have to pretend like that knowledge doesn’t exist.
I have to act like I haven’t pre judged my own life
As if I feel alive and believe it
As if I had goals, passion, motivation
But all I really have is nothing
Only these thoughts that will dissapear and never be heard
To have never mattered

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BlackFuture 7/7/2019 - 5:47 am

Yes. I also had that nihilism.. And I almost agree with you. because it really is nothing maybe! I tried to break those depressing thoughts so I searched “overcoming nihilism” but i couldn’t even understand what they are saying
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T3R3Z1 7/7/2019 - 6:53 am

Whats the problem with nothing? Its not bad nor good cuz its nothing!

rocketman 7/7/2019 - 7:13 am

And that it will lead to nothing
I will die with nothing
Like I never existed in the first place

That happens to everyone, all I can say is do what best for you.

lifeproject 7/7/2019 - 9:38 am

Indeed, life leads to nothing else then to the end; death. And yes, that is for everyone.
For me, this is the beauty of life. It ends the same for the well-doer and the ill-doer; for the poor and the rich, for the sacred and the non-believer.
It brings you straight down to earth and tells you that it’s not needed to make so much fuzz about anything. Just enjoy your life in a friendly way; it is not wrong to have fun for the fun and nothing else.

If you are looking for a huge goal in life, and to reach that, you will be sorely disappointed anyway.
Some – wellknown – guru said: a goal is just a constraint of options. If you want to live life to tyhe fullest, forget about goals. Just find your way in happiness, doing what you enjoy; not caring what other people think of it. Words of wisdom.

Dungeon 7/7/2019 - 1:00 pm

Apparently I wasn’t clear, it isn’t the nothingness that bothers me. It’s the idea that becoming nothing is all that I want and that I have to hide it. I do not care about the beauty of life and death. I do not care about the ideals of another person in this regard. I want to die because when life has truly has no meaning for oneself, you are literally waiting by the day to die.

Sanarisonordic 7/7/2019 - 1:23 pm

I feel the same. It doesn’t lessen the hollowness of my existence or yours. But I hear you. And that’s really all anyone can do.

We are all dying day by day.

Ignoring it doesn’t make it less true.

Cause of Death: Suicide 7/7/2019 - 5:25 pm

Seems like you are seeing hard luck towards your faith. You have to let go of attachments to live a free life. Have faith and passion, motivation will follow. Understand and accept life doesnโ€™t last forever, so accept what you have and try to live a stress-free life how you see fit before you no longer have the chance ๐Ÿ˜‰

lifeproject 7/8/2019 - 3:27 am

You dont care about your life. But you do care that you dont care. You say it’s the worst feeling for you. And that is because you feel you need to hide this feeling for others.
Do you really? Or would it be a good idea to talk to people about it?

I dont know what your story is. If you are depressed. What life brought to your table. If you already are on medicine or not. But it is a good idea to try to break this feeling. Feeling guilty about your feelings is not needed. You’re not alone in that.

There’s a lot to live for. You’re just not seeing it. try to figure out what causes your feelings and figure out a way to work on feeling better/different. Trying to find help with that is a good idea.

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