Exactly as I imagined my pink days liking life didn’t last much. 6 weeks this time. 6 weeks without thinking in suicide. 6 weeks being “normal”.
Life is a *****, an old cow who forgives nobody and after 6 happy weeks life poured over me the worst shit and now I dont have a life, I’m ruined and dummed again.
Back here and back to suicidal thoughts bc I really DONT WANNA LIVE IN THIS WAY AGAIN. I’M FED UP!!!
Every time I think it’s over more shit pours over me. Shit and problems are endless around my family.
This time I was doing all right, I just needed 6 months to get a job and vanish from here leaving all them behind. But now I was pushed again to the same point I was 5 years ago. And I am super scared bc I know exactly what expects me and is a pool full of shit where I’ll swim inside while I dont get away from here. Away forever !!!!