I’m so weak. But I don’t care. I don’t care about anything anymore because I want to die again. I thought I was getting better, but guess who slapped me in the face? Reality.
I’m so scared too. I’ve never had a “person”, or been anyone’s “person”. But I want to. I really want to. I want someone to love me, I want someone to put me first, I want someone to think about me all the time, I want someone to care. I want someone to be honest. That is what I want most. I didn’t sleep at all last night… All I do is think about Her. But this isn’t about her. This is about me, and the fact I thought I was okay, but I am definitely not. I have to keep my feelings down to keep Her happy, but she’s the only one I want to talk to… and she used to feel the same way, but it just changed? How do you go from being in love with someone one day to completely losing feelings the next? It just doesn’t make sense to me.
I feel like I’m going crazy every time I think about it. I feel like I’m sinking.
It’s so dumb that most of these feelings were triggered by a girl, but they were. She’s also the reason I thought I was better in the first place. I have nowhere to run, I have no one anymore. So, I’ve turned to the internet.
I’m not okay anymore.
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You are not weak, most people desire those things and it effects them, remember you can not have everything you want, dwelling on things doesn’t help either, work on things you know you can obtain to make your life better and if your a good person not selfish and fun to be around you will find that person or that person will find you. Oh and people break up all the time it’s not that easy to find the right one.