Came by this at the right moment. It’s so true! I couldn’t agree more. You spend weeks thinking, absorbing, understanding and becoming accustomed to all hell load of ordeals and just when you think, you know how to handle bad kinds of stuff – something happens that outlast everything else.
But then, again – as they say – “What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger!” I wonder how strong I am though ’cause I’m always falling apart, losing my sanity with every trouble that comes my way.
For me, I don’t think things will get worse because I think they have already been the absolute worse they could be (but I couldn’t lie and say they’ve ever been all that good.) But I do think the worst will repeat itself over and over and over again into eternity. So far the absolute worst has happened for me and then it happened many more times. Now I am just numb. I used to walk, read, cook, smile, have aspirations. Now I can do nothing but smoke, stuff my face, and cry. I am emotionally paralyzed..
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Came by this at the right moment. It’s so true! I couldn’t agree more. You spend weeks thinking, absorbing, understanding and becoming accustomed to all hell load of ordeals and just when you think, you know how to handle bad kinds of stuff – something happens that outlast everything else.
But then, again – as they say – “What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger!” I wonder how strong I am though ’cause I’m always falling apart, losing my sanity with every trouble that comes my way.
So true, If you break your toe somebody will step on it next.
Can confirm
For me, I don’t think things will get worse because I think they have already been the absolute worse they could be (but I couldn’t lie and say they’ve ever been all that good.) But I do think the worst will repeat itself over and over and over again into eternity. So far the absolute worst has happened for me and then it happened many more times. Now I am just numb. I used to walk, read, cook, smile, have aspirations. Now I can do nothing but smoke, stuff my face, and cry. I am emotionally paralyzed..