Life is not fair.

I cannot speak for what goes on in anyone’s head and what motivates or stops them from doing something. I just know that despite the hardships I’ve experienced, I’ll keep going until things get so desperate and there is no way out then I’ll consider ending my life.

I do agree with you, it is very hard to make oneself commit suicide. I’ve had some low points in my life that I wanted nothing more than to be dead but at the time I didn’t know anything about methods at the time (now I know). So I pushed on with life and it got much better. But I’ve still been struggling, I want to thrive, not just survive.

I will say that part of the decision to consider suicide involves the means that you choose. If you know of a way that is reliable, safe, mostly painless and fast then you are probably more likely to go through with it. I believe that is the major reason most people hesitate.

Of course if one isn’t left with any alternative then people will use risky, drastic measures. I’d strongly advise against it unless it is reliable. Preparedness is the key. Have a plan and if you do reach the ‘end of your rope’ then at least you are ready to end it.

I have a method lined up already which has proven efficacy and has been used by hundreds of other people and is pretty easy to do. So I’m ready to go if I’m forced to. However while I have my bad days so far my life is ok and there are many things I still want to do so I’m going to continue living as long as I can.