I’m past the point of feeling like suicide. Now it’s just apathy towards everything. Maybe that’s what I need to survive… to feel nothing.
I’ve felt this before. It was the aftermath of my mental breakdown.
I almost died giving birth to my son. And I can seem to shake that I’m feeling depressed and anxious and suicidal because I should be dead right now. My son is 3 and a half and something still feels wrong about being alive.
I guess I haven’t reached the point of no return. I think I’m just tired of feeling this way.