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Past the point of no return

by Blankstare

I’m past the point of feeling like suicide. Now it’s just apathy towards everything. Maybe that’s what I need to survive… to feel nothing.

I’ve felt this before. It was the aftermath of my mental breakdown.

I almost died giving birth to my son. And I can seem to shake that I’m feeling depressed and anxious and suicidal because I should be dead right now. My son is 3 and a half and something still feels wrong about being alive.

I guess I haven’t reached the point of no return. I think I’m just tired of feeling this way.


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headupunderdarkcloud 7/11/2019 - 4:34 am

Love your handle name, it’s perfect for all of us in this world. My impression, you’re just intelligent and self aware.

hope432 7/11/2019 - 6:32 am

Hey, I used to think that apathy is the “solution”. It’s the worst mental state. Please live for your son. He needs a soft, loving and caring mother.

“I almost died giving birth to my son.”

You are brave and courageous.

Blankstare 7/11/2019 - 4:58 pm

Thank you both. Your comments are really encouraging.

I guess a lot of living is confidence. I hate faking confidence – it always makes me feel like a fraud. I’m tired of living in fear though.

Lately my mind is everywhere all at once. I like this site though. I feel I can ramble without judgement.

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