It’s up to you but i would like to get to know your situations. Share whatever you are comfortable with.
1.What is it that you are facing, can’t surmount, can’t deal with. What happened to you, what is going to happen to you, what have you suffered or are suffering from.
2.What do you do to cope?
3.What are/were your dreams?
4.If you would like to add me on instagram so we can have a chat? I would really like some friends though it may sound weird because im forming a bond with a stranger with a high chance of losing them (Venus Hope/ Venushpoa, with the nice looking tree as background https://www.instagram.com/venushpoa/)
Hi CODS, i read some of your comments and i find your situation to be terrible, raped 170 times, being stalked and having your pay taken away constantly. (I’ve terrible memory so i can’t remember other stories). I really would like to get to know you and maybe offer some aid if i can? I don’t know… i just feel so compelled to do something, anything! I have problems too but i think helping others might help me feel better too. It’s ultimately up to you but do leave a comment to let me know your choice. Thank you.
I just want to say to everyone that i wish you the best, regardless of your course of action.(Deciding to persevere or die) We all deserve happiness despite how terrible we think we are or how worthless we are treated. I want to promise that if you stay long enough, one day i’ll be a doctor and treat you all! But as we are all familiar with, i can’t see myself even living till 20. It’s a dream of mine to help others who have suffered greatly and undergone the despair ive felt. I’m sure most of you have it worse than me and i would like to say you are strong for making it this long. No one will call you weak if you quit now but that’s not to say i’m encouraging you to die. Do whatever you want with your best interest at heart. For those who still harbour even a slimmer thread of hope, here’s something for you. In Japan, they have a practice of fixing things with gold, making it look even better. When you’re broken, you have a chance of being rebuilt into a version better than yourself. Bye, if anyone would like to chat leave a comment!
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Hello. I am surprised to be singled out this morning. I don’t have much to say, but I’m going to commit this year. Any day now. I’ve been researching suicide and praying to die before I fall asleep every night since 10 years old. I wasn’t supposed to make it past 18, but now I am 25. Um, other reasons I’m going to commit, ive been a lesbian and repulsed by any and everything that looks like a man since the age of 4, i used to be brutally molested as a young child and that all stopped and I thought it was over forever when it started happening again when some rapist started following me in 2016 and chose me as their victim, apparently immobilizing me in order to sexually assault me. I counted this happening 170 times. None of it meant anything and was all a sick joke, but there is no longer any light in my life and every day know and wish I would have went through with suicide and killed myself before this could happen in 2012. I have no second thoughts about committing. Every day, I know it is the best possible thing I could do, to get out of this slavery, this heartless torture that started happening when I started being followed in 2016.
I’m really sorry to hear. It’s okay to be a lesbian, there’s nothing wrong with the sexual orientation at all! With regards to the rapist, i assume the cops wont do anything? Do you have family? Do you work? I have so many questions. If you could do you mind adding me on instagram to talk ? If you need some money, i can send some to you but not much. Also, if you are preparing to leave, check out http://lostallhope.com/ They are the most comprehensive website on suicide i’ve came across. Maybe i’m not thinking it through, but why not kill the rapist or seriously injure him. I’m sure you resist but maybe is he too overwhelming i dont know. Why were so suicidal so early on in life? How does he immobilise you? If you have no friends i’ll gladly be your friend! Also, could you post something so i can read your posts? SP doesnt let me search authors up and see their post unless they post something
It’s sweet you are so willing to help a stranger, but you should keep your money. This person has a job and can get their own money to buy something to suicide.
Be wary on this place. Not all is as straight forward as some like to present.
i sent money to someone on here years ago, they apparently fell on hard times… but I really don’t know….? oh well.
I think it’s common knowledge that there are a percentage of people here who aren’t forthright in their circumstance. A given with privacy concerns, but this also goes into territory where some seek a reaction, whether it’s playing on the sympathy of others or sowing hate.
Being wary on the internet regardless is a good idea, not all are worthy of help.
i sent money to someone on here years ago, they apparently fell on hard times… but I really don’t know….? oh well.
I know it is ok to be a lesbian but I couldn’t change even if I wanted to.
I was raped before they took my home from me and then after they took my home and left me on the corner, they continued raping me obsessively the entire time.
The cops WOULD NEVER do anything, because I am the bad guy to them. And I’m not sure who the rapist is and that is why they keep doing it, because they are a predator and unidentifiable and CAN GET AWAY WITH IT. I have been raped by three cops also.
I DO NOT have ANY family.
You are the perfect person to talk to about this because I have started documenting each time I have been raped and I have wrote down exactly what happened. I made a post on here recently, but if you would like to read about each occurrence of rape I have documented I would be glad to share it with you. You can email me at prayforplagues@protonmail. C o m
The rapists have gone so far as to paralyze me. I can no longer walk. Because they get SO MUCH pleasure from my PAIN.
I -would- kill the rapist(s) if I knew who it was (they were.) but I’m sorry I don’t know. It might be multiple people, it might be one textbook severe predator. I have a haunting feeling it is a homophobe associated with the church, or a pedophile. It might just be someone who wants attention or someone who is ..just.. desperate. It might be someone I know it might be a stranger. Like they say it is usually an acquaintance such as a neighbor.
Sup m8.
Glad to know you’re interested. That’s nice of you.
I’m 16, born in France. I’ve been facing my whole life asperger’s syndrome, and a lack of social ability. My mother died when I was 10, and I spent the last 6 years with my father, who hasn’t got much social skills, and I believe him to suffer from asperger’s syndrome too. As far as I can remember in my life, I’ve never been happy and always had a will to suicide. I assume my social skills to be awful, since I haven’t got any friends. People find me quite funny, but either find out I’m depressed or find me to rough, as I grew more hateful in tone because of loneliness. I’ve got uncommon interests which doesn’t make it easy to make friends. I haven’t got social anxiety or anxiety at all (although it was the case before, and I’m a bit proud of getting rid of it myself, along with perfectionism and ocd), but my lack of friends could be explained by having no shit to talk about.
To cope with my depression, I ignore it most of the time, and spend lots of time drawing. My dream is to find love. I’m desperate for love.
Let’s talk on insta, @t3r3z1pup1tr3, be glad to know you.
I’m made of metal and get to hold pieces of material together after being squashed violently through them. It’s a job. Somebody’s got to do it. Sorry I can’t answer your questions. I don’t think they apply to tiny metal things.
Really? Huh I always though you were made of fur and claws. You know like a kitty cat.
Nah, those are different from me. I’m rivets!
OMG I GET IT NOW!!!!!! *face palm*