made myself buy a gram of ketamine. could be deadly. I think I will hamster now various stuff of drugs to get me down. bingo. man down. Captain, the Ship is sinking.
on the other side, I have already taken enough of ketamine to have really therapeutic effects. all my body is numb, my elbow is red. tip to toe in my head. this is a much more clear experience then cocaine. it is sad, in the past I would had used drugs to make people linger to get intimidating. now I want just lay on someone’s lap whom could bear interest of what I can serve the person too for their life.