Hi guys,
Its actually been a while since I posted. Ive been in a relationship the last two years and was trying to focus on being okay so I could function in society. But I just found out my bf has been lying about being okay with my condition. I have BPD so I feel emotionally like I have third degree burns all over my body. A lot of the time, if I feel safe, Im okay. I can push on. But right now I really just want to figure out a simple way to die. Ive kinda brought myself back around to hanging, but as a black person the idea of lynching myself after it was done so often and so cruelly to my ancestors just seems too disrespecful. I thought about an exit bag, but after hella research I’m unsure its as safe and foolproof as it seems. I just dont want to leave a mess. I wish I could just dissappear.
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“But I just found out my bf has been lying about being okay with my condition.”
So what? Keep trying to focus on being okay so you could function in society.
Bad time to make quick decisions IMO.