I am returning to the site after a year now. After repeatedly failing in everything I did, I luckily moved to a better place last year and I met a guy despite my insecurities and trust issues. He treated me with so much disrespect even after knowing all that I went through. He has no remorse of his mean behaviour. After dating for 8 months on and off, he trashed me. I have a very low self esteem right now and living alone with no friends or family is driving me to my dark place again. This may sound nonsensical, but after a very long time I let someone in and they destroyed me over and over again.
Why do some people never get to see happiness? My best friend who is living thousands of miles away from me has been recently diagnosed with the early symptoms of a fatal disease and I can’t even convince her. Why do some people have to be hurt so much physically, mentally AND emotionally in repeat mode?