My life is so silent. After I gave up school by mental disorder, It’s been 4 months. I was great at school. I studied really hard so i could be in the fourth entire school. but i should keep myself in gloomy mood,i literally attacked myself.
Anyway, i tolerated it and was almost ok until 5 months ago.
I couldn’t endure anymore at the school. At the new school, I was maybe Not just a depression, with actual mentally broken symptoms sort of seizures..
So im 17 years old i cannost see any expectations of my life. Can i go through the BLACKFUTURE? Im totally broken. I dont have any power to do something special for me, Just wandering around the Internet… For 4 months, I suffered such anxiety. Im scared. I screamed cause of great days of the past. But im weak now. Im lonely. Families are great, but they dont come home. Dad is out there for work, coming 1 day of 2 weeks. Mom goes work and come almost 1 hour home.
And my brother is just.. silent.
Im not really serious and suicidal, but so lonely and weak, im just depressed. I dont know what im doing here.
Im not good at English, sorry for that.