im so alone…i have a big family but yet im still so alone. if im being honest i dont know what to do anymore, idont want to be selfish and take my own life i wish to never put my family through such a hard thing, but i dont know how much longer i canlive, all i wanna do is just scream, everything im typing i want to scream. but im also trying to stay strong for my family i cant show that im actually suffering this much, i feel stuck. because i know that i cant do this but the suicidal thoughts seem to be winning me over at the moment, im living day by day. and theres good days sometimes well maybe good hours…itll be too long to explain my full feelings and situation, if u read it thankyou it means quite alot
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this sounds like something i would exactly say. i feel the same way. i think the same way. there’s currently 9 people in this house and i feel so damn lonely. tonight i stayed in the shower for as long as i could because i couldnt stop crying. couldn’t stop thinking about death. i wish i had something more positive to say but you’re not alone. we can’t let these suicidal thoughts take over us.
i do the same thing, last nite after writing this i had to cry into a pillow so noone would worry about me but i hate that someone else has to feel the way i do but at the same time it makes me feel a little less lonely so thankyou for replying