I wish i could disappear from everyone’s memories. Watch them from a far as they carry on with their lives, happy, without me, a burden. Leave to a far away country and live alone. Thinking about life and repenting on everything i have done. I think i have caused enough pain to my love ones. They have enough pain in there lives, i am insufficient. Thay have enough shit going in there lives, i am a hindrance. I wish them all the best in this world. I love them too much. It is best i disappear so they can be happy. I’m sorry, i love you….
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I know the feeling, but I think it’s generally pretty unlikely that someone would experience less pain as a result of their loved ones committing suicide, no matter how much of a hindrance they were. That’s not how love works. Grief, guilt, regret, anger etc. don’t generally make for a happy existence.
When I was 22, I was getting raped and they called me a burden. It was really f*cking scary. They raped me while I was in jail overnight lol. How f*cking creepy and terrible.