Is it best to accept who you are or change it. I use to hate me. But lately ive stopped caring and just grabbed another joint or bottle. Whats it matter when im at the point where i wish someone would hand me a gun. I think it would terrify some people how id pull the trigger without blinking an eye. At this point im just waiting to be pushed off this high rope i walked on to. Its a pretty delicate balancing act and lately ive been losing balance.
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I’m not sure? I just smoked a joint made a drink monster and vodka took a few Vicodin and watching the TV screen spinning in circles , I think I don’t care?.
You have to ask yourself if you change would you feel better if so then of course you change.
And I’m just suppose to trust the guy who just “smoked a joint made a drink monster and vodka took a few Vicodin” and is now “watching the TV screen spinning in circles” uh huh suuure whatever you say.
By all means you should trust me, I was at one with the universe! Now I’m just drinking coffee, it’s Yuban very strong! , But I’m having a hard time giving advice on this one, but I am rooting for you. 🙂
Ok let’s talk about this a bit If you want I am trying to read through the lines and interpret them you can tell me if I’m on the right track. Also I’m taking in consideration of your other post.
“At this point im just waiting to be pushed off this high rope i walked on to”
Is this regarding just getting married?
“Its a pretty delicate balancing act and lately I’ve been losing balance.”
Is this because the people around you want you to conform to their ideas? And are you still in touch with people that have hurt you in the past?
If so I can understand why your frustrated I’ve been there myself.
It hilarious how far off you are honestly. Lol
I drink and do weed excessively. And if it wasn’t for my loved ones I would be doing harder drugs. Drinking more. And part of me thinks I should change that because I know it’s bad but I dont really care honestly.
The high rope that I’m falling off of is sanity. I’m just waiting to fall off and finally kill myself because fuck everything else I’m tired of this bullshit.
Well you made my day! I hadn’t had a good laugh in a long time, So much for my swami instincts!!!
However I did learn a little bit more about you! Actually we have a lot in conman, the sanity thing is just a figure of speech?
and what did you learn? im curious
Ok for example, if I say I’m losing my sanity I might mean it’s just hard put up with everything that’s going on at the moment.
if I say I’m losing my sanity I’m seeing things or hearing voices that’s more a little different.
Hey I do that! I love talking to the voices in my head that call me a fail and I love it when my hallucinations stalk me. It’s as fun as a barrel of monkeys 🙂
That your not Florence nigh tin Gale! 🙂 Just joking you do what everyone else does, cope the best way you know how.
And are you still in touch with people that have hurt you in the past?
I missed that part. No I’m not. But lately I’ve been thinking about it.
No I’m not I cut them out of my life like cancer, I think about them now and then as well, when people like that are around it’s a constant reminder.
That was what I originally did but lately I’ve been thinking why not.
Can’t say? I know it’s never the same especially over a period of time.
hey rocketman 🙂
ARE YOU CALLING ME?
no but i emailed you. is that close enough?
yep I say that covers it!
did you notice when you try to not laugh you smile even more 😀
As himans, we are genetically programmed for perpetual discontent, and therefore feel the need to change everything about everything. We do not accept what “is”, but rather feel the need (and believe it is our right) to alter all we can.
But how easy is change?
Exactly.
So from that perspective, acceptance can be liberating – living in your world with the hand you’ve been dealt, without feeling you’ve been short changed and constantly scrambling to live up to the ideals you feel need to be met.
Acceptance would be the more logical course, but as a human, well, good luck with that.
*as humans