I’ve been having suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember. I always think about ways i can kill myself and hope for someone to kill me to put me out of my misery. I’ve never sought any treatment for mental health and have no interest in doing so. I really just want to kill myself. I’m so exhausted of living and waking up every day. I have no passion and nothing in this world is good enough to make me want to stay alive honestly. Everything is a disappointment. I don’t enjoy anything normal people do and I’ve tried it all. I don’t even care for myself so family and friends are not in my thoughts.