I’ve been having suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember. I always think about ways i can kill myself and hope for someone to kill me to put me out of my misery. I’ve never sought any treatment for mental health and have no interest in doing so. I really just want to kill myself. I’m so exhausted of living and waking up every day. I have no passion and nothing in this world is good enough to make me want to stay alive honestly. Everything is a disappointment. I don’t enjoy anything normal people do and I’ve tried it all. I don’t even care for myself so family and friends are not in my thoughts.
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can i just say, that sucks. but youre missing out. one day you might experience things you never thought u would. like falling in love or doing something that excites the shit out of you. how sure r u, that NO ONE or NOTHING or NO PLACE in this world would make you feel alive again? im sure its out there, and that you shld try to be more hopeful, instead of feeding your negative feelings and thoughts. dont give it any more attention, they r frigging ruining your life experience. i know we all have those thoughts and its hard to not think abt it, but be conscious! it might make you feel sth different.
I totally feel ya on hoping someone will kill you. I’m often on the lookout to get into mortal trouble (but without getting innocent people involved) Some have taken it as bravado but its just fiery hopelessness.
I’m afraid like me, you too suffer from ennui and don’t find happiness worth seeking. Why not try to just live out your days knowing it all to be meaningless, if only to be witness to a bit of history?
I’ve never sought mental health treatment however it was forced on me (the slimy wh*res)
Of course it was no help at all and just the biggest waste of time I had ever seen in my life. I’d much rather just die. I don’t have any family and friends.. I never have. The only reason I am still alive is I don’t know how to kill myself. I’ve been trying to figure out how to for the last 15 years. All I really do is pray to die but it never works… I feel like I am forced to be alive today by the people I hate and have done nothing but waste my time