Suicide is not a joke. Simple as that. So why is it that some people have to go out and make a joke if it? And I’m not talking just like people saying they wanna kill themselves as an expression when something inconvenient happens because I do that too. I mean things like what happened today.
Mum talking to this guy and he really really likes me but I don’t really so our conversations are fairly one sided. I wasn’t talking to him because I said I was busy which I was, then an hour later he texts me again and said he was sorry but he was going to kill him self. Obviously I don’t want that regardless of whether I want to be in a relationship or what not. I tried to calm him down by saying things like please don’t and you know like I care about you and so do others. He then went as far to send me videos of him juggling pills in his hand and “putting them in his mouth”. I say this in quotations because the videos would always end before he had his hand fully to his mouth. After I kept telling him not to and everything I could say, he said out of nowhere “okay I won’t do it”. I was surprised because it was so all of a sudden. We talked a little about it after and then he sounded completely fine and just overall happy to be talking to me like nothing happened so I asked him if he was serious about killing himself. He told me he wasn’t serious and he just wanted to see how I would have reacted. This made me mad because here I was, texting him frantically for 2 hours trying to make sure he’s okay saying he could talk to me, really all I could just for him to turn around and say he did it for attention so I would talk to him and tell him I cared. And in all of this, I even told him how i had tried multiple times to kill my so he could open up to me as I understood. That’s not something I go blabbing around and I told him for nothing. Over a sick “joke”.