I am thinking a lot about Death. I want it, but I am more passionate about Love. I would set myself Alive for Love, I would make my Wish to Die true by dying in accompany of those who I love and I could finally stop all my Lifestyle that is bad for my Life.
On the other Side, I could live on with my Lifestyle, doing this with my beloved ones, not in Direction to Die from, but with the Perspective of enlightment, to have occupations of Truth to found on, to enjoy being alive and to have the Thrill of doing wrong to Law.
I want to met her in Tel Aviv and return. But If I fail to meet her, I will become a Piece of Nightmare. Stealing Gun’s and Cars, getting by though it all barely alive. Killing and Hiding. Truth will probably be more like getting jailed, being relocated to where I was. Being attacked for the Violence and Crimes I did. Losing all I belong and had taken by my Side.
I am so Sad, but I think, Israel and Syria are decent to have myself shot to Death.