i’m seeing myself, the things around me, as me, in third person.
i’m seeing everything at once, i’m hearing everything at once, i ‘m feeling nothing but everything at once.
i don’t understand what this is, i can’t identify myself as myself anymore. i can’t even hate myself because i can’t recognize her anymore. i feel strange, i can’t explain it.
everything feels new, my hands, the pillow, the world. i feel like i’ve been born one second ago, i want to show you what i see, but i don’t know what i see either. i feel like i’m slowly going insane from the imagery and art i want to create, i don’t understand. i can’t remember my past, i can’t remember my goals, i’m not even on drug, i’m feeling a emotion of another person.