My life sucks,nothing in my life ever goes right.I don’t have any friends and the one friend i had was killed on July 11th 2019. I get bullied every single day,it’s so bad that I hate to even leave my home.The people who enjoy bullying me have called me horrible names,they say mean things to me,they actually do lots of horrible things to me.
I have lots of bad thoughts about ending my life just so I don’t have to deal with them anymore,I mean who would miss me if I did kill myself? No one right? No one would care and I’m sure my bullies would be happy if I did end my life. The thought of me ending it all does make me feel a little better.
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Your post is truly heartbreaking. I’m so very sorry that you lost your only friend before their time. I can’t even imagine what that must feel like. Many of us have been bullied, myself included. Just know that a good, honest and kind person would never bully someone else. Bullies are wounded and damaged, but that doesn’t give them the right to bully others. Make of that as you will, you are not entirely alone.
Your experiences with bullying sound remarkably similar to what I went through from 6th grade to 12th grade. Nobody deserves to be routinely subjected to such abject torment, except perhaps the bullies themselves.
I have some good news and some bad news.
The good news is that, as you get older, you don’t get bullied nearly as much (if at all) and the type of “bullying” you usually experience as an adult is a lot more subtle. This is one of the few things that adults didn’t lie to me about when I was younger.
The bad news is that the psychological effects of intense bullying usually follows the victim long after the damage has been inflicted (as reported here: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4552909/). Perhaps with increased awareness of bullying compared to when I was growing up, victims will be able to get the kind of support that I never received and will consequently become relatively stable, happy, well-functioning adults.
I hope it all works out for you and don’t be afraid to strike back against those losers who are making your life hell!
I feel it. I feel like it’s good to know at least some folk will be happy that you have passed, lol, i guess it makes it easier to act on the impulse. I don’t really care what anyone else thinks though but honestly I think maybe it’s better that way. Especially if you are getting bullied and everything, etc.