I’ve been fighting with depression for 5 years now, and I can’t honestly say when was the last time I thought “Jeez, life is good” or “Damn I love life”. I have considered suicide countless times, nearly on a daily basis, and have gotten close to doing it a couple times.
However I’m not just here to mope as usual, I want to change my life for the better. I’ve been in a shitty state of mind for way too long now, and I just want to be happy. I have done lots of research on how to get better, but I don’t think there’s a simple solution for depression. But one thing I found in common with all the advice is that on the road to recovery you must love yourself.
I try, I really do. I WANT to get better. I WANT and NEED a happy life. But I fucking hate myself so much and mistakes I made in the past are still haunting me today and I feel like a burden to everyone around me.
Does anyone have advice? It’s okay if you don’t, at least I got this off my chest.