What made you self harm?
Have you stopped? Why did you or why didn’t you?
Ive been looking at my scars a lot lately and i just questioned myself on how this all got started. I’ve been thinking about harming again mostly because everything feels a little different.
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i started because of abuse mostly, self harm was a form of pain i could control. i dont very much anymore because im sick of pain and it doesnt give the same feeling
I have no idea why I started, I kept doing it though because I found use in it. I have sort of stopped for the most part though, starting about 3 or 4 years ago now was when I began quitting. I stopped mostly because I had made friends who did find out (it was hard to hide when it eventually crawled out onto my hands) and gently pushed me towards quitting. I still am not sure why I shouldn’t self harm though, because really I already have the scars…. It’s not like I’m going to make things any worse for myself with a few more.
this question really got me thinking now. i don’t know why I started self harming, but I knew it felt better than the mental pain i was feeling back then. i stopped. i still have urges, but id rather not have my kid see blood and scars all over my arms.
I suffered from psychosis before my depression really took off, so my “self harm” was a strange ritual for me. I used to carve symbols on my palms and chest. Just simple patterns made of circles and lines usually. I can’t really explain why I did this but I stopped shortly after.
This was much before I was diagnosed with anything and things were nowhere as bad as what they would be in the future.
I then took to punching the wall with my fists, but upon realising the sound that it makes, I started punching my head as hard as I could. I still do this when things get tense. Sometimes I’m trying to knock myself out (sounds dumb, I know), other times it’s just a way to try and clear my head.
i started back in 8th grade because one of my friends didn’t want to be my friend anymore. We were really close and everything just went downhill, i started to get bullied constantly, every year. Longest i stopped self-harming was for 3 months and that was summer of 2019. I started back up again, because i lost my best friend. her n i got into a fight and its been hard. Im still hurting myself because it makes me feel better. i guess it can be a form of punishment. But it mostly takes the mental pain away and makes me focus on the physical pain. and i also like looking at them. That has some sort of release.
I started getting sexually assaulted, and stalked.. I don’t know even who, but I’ve been raped and/or molested 180 times since June 2016 and so I’ve started slamming my head against walls, concrete, floor, sometimes I will slam my hands against my head.. honestly i was supposed to be dead since 2012 at the very latest. I don’t really know how to kill my self so I hit myself hard enough a few times to think of death from blunt force trauma