So there is someone with a 5 year restraining order against me, and it makes me want to kill myself.
It was served on me while I was in jail in solitary confinement for allegedly harassing her. It was originally only temporary at that point in time, but I ended up accepting a plea deal understanding it would be extended for one year. Then she asked for a 5 year extension. I didn’t know what to do.
My attorney was recently investigated because I took the plea deal under false pretenses. I’ve been trying to find a new attorney to see what can be done, but I keep getting the run around.
The RO expires in less than a year, and at this point I would like it to be a lifetime restraining order. I tried to kill myself in jail, and have been hospitalized once every year since then for various mental health problems.
I didn’t know how she felt, and she hasn’t talked to me in over 5 years. I used to really like her, but she was my supervisor at a job that I had. Our coworkers have mostly sided with her, and I am even banned from a property over it.
Part of my wants the RO to be for a lifetime, so that if I violate it, I can just kill myself in jail.