Did you ever notice how there is never a right time to take your life? There’s always a family occasion, celebration or anniversary, and now with Christmas just around the corner the timing for my suicide couldn’t be worse. I don’t think I can hang on until January. Christmas brings out the worst in suicidal people, it highlights the abnormality of your life compared to the normality of everybody else. One thing I refuse to be is the guy who took his life without giving his family adequate warning. I’ve actually asked for my family’s permission to end my life so there will be no agonizing what if questions after im gone. My family didn’t go for it so I’ll have to take my life regardless. It’s really just a question of timing, it would be wrong to suicide in December because of the holidays but January seems like a long way off. All I have to do is drive to the mountains with a hose in my car, it will be quite easy, but this is the worst time of the year for a family to get such tragic news so I’m stuck for the time being.