im 22 years old and have no hopes or aspirations of the future. I have no faith in my abilities to be responsible, to make friends, or to be a normal functioning person. I wake up in the morning and cry because I have no real people that value me in my life. My family has never given a shit about me. And all of my “friends” only show the definition of FAKE LOVE. I don’t know what to do. Don’t know where to start. Have no hobbies or anything that makes me happy. Should I just die?
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Hey! I know how it feels to be in a low place in life. I also want to you to know how sad it would be if the world lost an awesome human being like yourself! 😀 If you think you should die, that’s just so awful that you have to feel that way! I mean, you never deserved to feel that way. I hope you know this is not your fault and you can rise above this! I’m a random person in Who-Is-It ville, but I still feel highly concerned for your well-being!! 😀
-Purr Purr -2019-
No one has the right to judge someone else’s pain. I understand. But. You are only 22. I am 48. My first suicide attempt was at 10 years old. My second at 12, and long story short I’ve attempted suicide 6 times since then. I am finally going to see it through. But I’m a certifiable BPD/ASPD basket case. I never “took care of it”. Mental ailments are devastating and very real. See a professional. I wish I had but let’s just say I gave up on my sorry ass and truly believe I deserve death, if only to spare others the burden of my life. But you are still quite young and your future is unknowable. A lot can happen in just a matter of weeks, days even. Give it time and try to talk to a friend or therapist.
Sounds close to mine except I would never do anything to improve the circumstance, I would rather do as you have described and ‘just die.’ My greatest aspiration was that I kill myself the day I turn 18, because I had been waiting since a small child to kill myself. Sadly, that was 7 years ago. I have not done one single thing in those 7 years except sit alone.