The answer?
I don’t know.
Maybe just to suffer more.
This is so frustrating.
If I tell them that it’s okey if they go.
They‘ll just go.
It would not be right to let them stay if they want to go.
But am I really okey?
No, it’s painful, but I can’t blame anyone.
It’s the right thing to do.
It’s better this way.
I hope that they will never look back.
Maybe they‘ll leave me behind.
It would be really painful.
But then I will be free.
I could finally just go.
And if they are reading this.
Are you slowly leaving me behind?
If yes, thank you.
If no, well, I’ll just wait.
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Who are they? Hope you don’t mind me asking. It’s just what you’ve been posting keeps getting stuck in my brain and was curious about what’s going on there.
Why do you even care?
Anyway, they are someone I love.
Just because a lot of what I’ve been seeing in your posts on here I feel resonate with me and my own situation a lot. Am sure it’s not the same situation, but still was wondering about your story I guess.
Can I ask if they’re a family member, friend, or SO?
They are someone I love, not a friend and not a family member, so, you should know what I mean.
Yeah, that’s what my impression was but wasn’t sure. Did you meet them on here? Is that why you said, “And if they are reading this.”?
I didn’t meet them on here, I didn’t even meet them, we know each other from playing videogames together, we’ve grown really close.
But they are the only person that knows everything, even that I write on this site, but I wasn’t sure if they were still reading.
And they did, they told me.
How did they respond to this?
They said that they don’t want to leave me behind.
But I want to be left behind.