I feel like I want to die because everything I do will just disappear.
I keep hallucinating I fixed my life and I was able to live a life I felt was perfect.
As an adult I keep trying to find my own life but it keeps ending up being a hallucination.
I’m in so much mental pain I just want to die…but I don’t know how to break through the system…my parents have threatened to get me recommitted to the mental institution.
I just wish someone else would understand the pain I’m in…yet no one else can, because I’m the only one who can see it. I feel so internally broken. I don’t even care anymore…I just want to go back to my seat in elementary school…then maybe I could pretend there is still hope for the future….and everything I accomplish won’t just turn into another hallucination…