so im gonna see about going out with an old friend from when i was really little. and im thinking about telling her everything so that if i start acting weird she will understand why. i cant count how often i deleted or blocked someone just because i figured they hated me when in actuality they were just busy and life got in the way like it does sometimes and i dont want that coming between her and i again. its like her older sister said yesterday, we use to hang out all the time and i would like to go back to at least hanging out a little bit. if she wanted to i would love her to be apart of my new life. maybe drop by and help me out in the bakery. but im scared of what she will think. being my friend through all of it and knowing about none of it. i mean i know she wouldnt blame me. i know she would give me lots of hugs and feel sorry for me (even though thats not what i would be looking for) ill just tell her that. im not looking for sympathy, just an understanding that if i start acting weird theres a very good reason for it. besides i doubt the diagnosis is over. im thinking he just wanted to deal with one thing at a time. currently borderline personality disorder. but its like he read the day i was there, self diagnosed capgras. which im 99% sure i have. i mean i thought my dog was being held captive in the woods by coyotes and they trained another dog to act just like her. if that isnt the definition….(nervous crying laugh) anyway he didnt even touch on that so i feel we are far from over. its a process…all i can do is take deep breaths and hope she understands
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I have a friend who is, I was told 30+ years ago, a paranoid schizophrenic. The friendship has lasted thirty + years. It has at times been difficult to be around her but thankfully one of her friends told me of the diagnosis so early on. That is the key. Even though I did not know quite what to expect, and was often frustrated by the unexpected behaviors, I did know to expect the unexpected and I have genuine compassion for my friend. It sounds like you are going forward with this friendship in a wise way.
I thought so but I don’t even know where to start. Or when to tell her or where