I tried to kill myself earlier today by downing a bunch of pills. I haven’t seeked treatment yet and I know that I made a mistake doing that. I don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t want to hurt my family. I’ve been hospitalized for being suicidal before, I tried to get help then, but they ended up sending me to child protective services because I wasn’t safe to go home and I’m scared I’m going to be sent back there again if I go to the hospital. I know I should go to the hospital, but I’m really scared. I know I’m going to do damage to my body if I don’t seek treatment, but that is what I wanted. I just don’t want to live anymore. I really need someone to help me; I’m scared.
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talk to someone or just go to the hospital trust me you don’t want this as much as you think you do
Do you have someone you trust even a little to tell them? Hopefully they can get you somewhere at least to cope with the situation.
You mention child protective services — do you have some counselor? Even if they are not that good, it’s better than nothing.