1And just like that everything shut down. Im hurt and want to cry but i cant. I can barely move. Picking up my phone to write this pained me. I feel empty…hollow. and at the same time like im going to explode. I see no reason to continue. No reason to keep going. Im missimg a “happy” moment because of this. A christmas present for my husband and grandfather just got delivered. I was SO happy earlier. It made me realize how many happy moments i missed and how many im going to miss in the future.