Its like youre zoned out but you cant snap out of it. Its like youre watching a movie even though you know its actually happening. I assume this….out of body feeling i guess one might call it, is what disassociation is. Idk. I might be wrong. Any ideas?
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Lately I’ve been having nightmares where I will hear strangers voices screaming in my ear….. then I’ll wake up and won’t be able to move for a few minutes at all….. this first occurred about two-3 weeks after i took my first OD (Hydroxyzine, Congentin, Iron, Magnesium)……. it was a doll I got when I was 9 or 10. Then someone was squeezing my throat, and I couldn’t breathe… then I couldn’t move after opening my eyes. I’ve had frequent nightmares since then and I have no idea in Satan’s Hell why this is. Is this HATE CRIME perhaps? I don’t mean to overrule your post and make it all about me, but it seems like we have at least a slightly similar problem. If you have read my last post this is the age when I was raped as a young child (9 years old) …. and this is also a week or so after a normal young homosexual girl extremely similar to me, was raped and choked to death in my city. I had also discussed her in my last post how I OD’d because I was stalked, sodomized (a woman licked my asshole), and reported to the police where I was fined $15,000 ….
My last dream i felt like my heart stop beating and a woman’s voice said, ‘lol, I murdered you.’ This has happened about 15 times and they make me beg them to stop before they will let me move unparalyzed. I have never met these people in my life and I’m just trying to sleep after work… Another occurance, I had a dream that I had called a very bad looking guy hideous and then I was having a grand mal seizure, it seemed like he was offended and wanted to attack me sadistically in this ‘dDdDdRrRrREeEeEAaAaAMmmm’
stop commenting on my posts. you comments are mean or have nothing to do with it 99% of the time
I was just wondering if you knew what my problem might be…? I guess you don’t know. Lol.
Secretly, I have been praying and hoping and planning to kill myself with shotgun to the head, but sadly, I feel like I will never get the chance to because I am too busy being these creepy strangers torture doll .
didnt you read what sp admin posted today. no methods.
Hey Cause of Death, don’t feel bad. I’m sorry you’re suffering. I know what you mean when you say it’s hard dealing with it. You can litter my posts up any time.
Have you been diagnosed with any type of psychotic disorder / schizophrenia/ substance induced etc?
I get you on the feeling of discomfort because it feels like constant attacks against your identity, ( life). I hear you and I care for your well being because you’re an all around cool person on here. Please don’t hurt yourself, you don’t deserve it.
Have you tried tuning out what you hear? And living life telling yourself it isn’t real? Or hell, you know how you’re seeing this as a big threat, these “people?” Try identifying it as something you aren’t afraid of. Someone pathetic, and tell yourself that they aren’t really touching you. Touch base with a reality that you used to know. Call it a tactile hallucination. Call it a delusion. Call it a hallucination. Tune it out. It helps having a good social circle too.
as far as your problem give me a minute to read it and think about it. i might be able to come up with something
just maybe start of with “hey i got this problem could you help me out…..” that way ill know 🙂
ok not the same problem. what i was taking about in the post was feeling disconnected from everything. i could still move and what not. i might have an answer for you problem though. the simple answer is trauma. id have to read it again and pay more attention to it to give a more detailed answer though. my husband was asking me about food which i have zero interest in right now *eye roll* lol
I would call what you are describing disassociation. I have experienced it many times.
i experience it more times then i can count lol
Me too. And it made a lot of people uncomfortable, which made me uncomfortable with a lot of people.
uncomfortable? thankfully im not typically around a lot of people so im not bothered too much
The stink of it is that I used to be around lots of people most of the time and would disassociate several times a day and a lot of people saw it. Some people were uber rude in their reaction to it.
how is one suppose to react to it. i just try to act as normal as i can and if im questioned…im tired thats my answer for a lot of things though
“I’m tired” That’s a clever answer. Actually there is a lot of truth to that answer.
A lot of truth that is difficult to understand unless you’ve been there. Thankfully I’m typically left alone however with the misconception that I want to sleep. My husband tries to help but a temporary sleep won’t help, not this problem
Our pain makes us either tired or driven to distractions, then tired from those. Which brings us back to tired as a result of our brains and bodies dealing with all sorts constant “flight” mode stuff. Arrgh!
Fight or flight. And fighting isn’t too much of an option when it’s not physically there lol
Or even when it was.