You want to be loved but dont blink an eye about me
I guess I choose the bad guy again
What makes me feel alive is that i feel pain
But when the pain is too much i cant bear it anymore
You are like a drug to me
A place to escape from my crooked mind
And when the times end
Im back again to my state
Depressed
I always thought i was cured
But thats so stupid
It never happened
My mind gulping me down inside
Once again im blind
I give you all i have, its not much but its the last piece i can give you
My last heart, smile
And what we called feelings
With you I feel loved and pleasure but momentary
Im sorry its my fault
I started this so i should end this too
The times finally come
Shouldnt believe it
Shouldnt try to live better
Shouldnt try to taste happiness and love
Should just stay here in the dark
So i can protect myself more
And let the dark engulfing me
And when i cant hold myself anymore
Let this hand and breath decide what to do
Should be easier to die
I will try to go back to myself who get used to be alone
Lonely in the dark
I wont try again to search for light
Ill be here in the space that i shouldnt let someone interfere
Im gonna let myself going back
I think that will be better
So oneday i can kill myself without regret or thinking anymore
Me? Looks like i will never find what love is
No one loves me
No one…
I realize it when you said that
Let me die in pain
Let me remember why i choose that way