i made a post about some of my worse problems and didnt exactly get the response i was hoping for although i thank rainwatch for answering and talking to me. but now i have something else.
am i the only one that feels hatred?
you all talk about oh they have done this to me that and the other thing but it seems im the only one that feels anger towards the ones that made me like this. overall im an extremely nice person. unless im wronged. and my enemies should be scared. they have wronged me. they have left me alone and broken to fend for myself. it is because of them that i do not have the capability to live my life to its fullest. and although i would love to see the whites of their eyes as their soul (or lack there of. black tar of a soul…yeah) as their black tar of a soul oozes from their body. the life slowly being drained from them the way they did so to me only leaving me alive to suffer, im going to do it the legal way and just shove my successful hopes and dreams in their face. point is though, yeah cuz i wanted these fucking problems. i wanted to pay all of this fucking money to “fix” myself. all this fucking time its going to waste until the day i die.
all i ask is a few questions.
why should i have to die for the wrongs they have done to me. why do i have to suffer because of what some fucking assholes did to me 5+ years ago? am i the only one that feels this way? and if im not… why not stand up for yourself and do something? ok that question probably came out a bit harsh and wrong. let me show you my pov.
my mother abused me since the day i was born. one day she slapped me across the face and i had enough of her bullshit so i slapped her back. and that was the last time she ever hit me. now im not saying go and hit your mom but if you can why not try to change your situation? i understand its not always possible but when it is…whats stopping you from being happy and doing what you want with your life? basically dont get mad at me because i worded something poorly. explain it to me.