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im honestly tired

by lillugiacutie

i dont know what this site is about, but i saw a bunch of suicide related posts and maybe thats its purpose. if not, im sorry. i can delete this.

 

my family is very poor and my parents yell at eachother a lot. my mom spoke to me secretly about how they might get a divorce after im 16 or 18. im 16 in a couple months.

my dad abuses my dog. he also verbally is rude to me. he is also transphobic, homophobic, and racist. being transphobic doesnt help when i want to be trans. im like a little slave to this house and they make me do their every bidding, calling me 10 times a day to fix a simple drink for them in the middle of me doing work. if i get under 80s they take away all my stuff. im trying to have good grades but they just make it harder for me.

ive been thinking about suicide and even planning to run away, before i realized im too poor and i dont even have the supplies to run away. im also very obedient so thinking about this makes me a little scared but i really want to run away from my shit school and shit dad.

ive been thinking about suicide too. i take 15 vitamin gummies every day now. i dont know if you can overdose on vitamin gummies, but im doing it. ive been thinking about jumping off a cliff but there are none nearby.

i have school now. thanks to anyone for reading this i guess

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404 1/14/2020 - 12:06 pm

I’m currently working however your story basically explains mine aside from the homophobic thing. Wait until I get home and I can say more. Also stop trying to od on gummies. It’s not gonna work.

404 1/14/2020 - 12:50 pm

Do you mind talking to me a bit so I can get to know a bit more? It seems to me your mother isn’t all that bad as she was the one to warn you of the divorce and you didn’t say you wanted to get away from her. Is this true?

namelessqueer 1/15/2020 - 11:57 am

I’m sorry things are hard. I hope that things change eventually and that you’re able to survive until you can make a life for yourself that feels better. Sending you kindness and well wishes, though I know they don’t amount to much sometimes. (FYI: I’m a 31 y/o trans person and I know that even though it feels impossible, we can survive and strive despite shitty circumstances) Do the best you can and find allies as best as you can.

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