I always come back. I reread my old posts. I browse new ones. I dont even necessarily wanna die anymore but I always am so drawn to this place.
Recently been trying to identify why I feel so unworthy and unwanted by people around me. I feel as if people always leave me, they no longer see value in me and that’s really affecting me and always has.
Moving though was the best thing for me, I love Arizona, I love the new people I met here. However the feelings run so deep for me i just want to latch on and i wish people showed how important i am. Cause i feel worthless.
The friends I’ve made from here, all gone. I try reaching out and get silence. I dont know what’s so wrong with me that people never wanna stay in my life.
This is just a ramble post. So many thoughts. I’m happy where I’m at for the most part but I can never get over the fact that no one stays around. I wish I knew why I’m not good enough.