im hanging out with my cousin tomorrow. this is the first time ive ever hung out with him. i was too young before and then we stopped talking for a while. im going to be trying shatter for the first time. not only that but he sent me a couple messages im not sure what to think about. hes not actually my cousin. we were both married into the family through our mothers but still. im a little bit worried about going tomorrow. being alone. my husband having no idea what im doing. what if my gut is right and its a bad idea. i know it was right in the past. i almost got raped that time…but hes my cousin right? he wouldnt hurt me.
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Be very careful do it once shame on him do it twice shame on me.
i take it you knew what i meant by a couple messages im not sure what to think about. plus the last part probably gave it away i guess
Well your thinking about it and you might want it to happen, we all want what we think about only natural. it’s just a little scary is it worth it?
It does sound like a not great plan. I would imagine you’d probably want to be around someone you trusted when trying a new drug. And if you wanted to get to know someone you felt unsure about, it ‘d make sense to take a friend. Hope it goes well anyway.
he didnt message me back so now im getting drunk. another day.
Guessing you feel like you’ve got to do something to try and escape your experiences? I’ll probably be at that point in a few hours.
yes. id be drunk/stoned all the time if my husband wasnt watching me
Seems like escapes get less effective the more you use them. But if I’m desperate enough I suppose I just go with the habit – anything to forget for a few minutes/seconds.
basically. i find if booze isnt working that if i follow it with weed all is fine. so now im doing that too lol