you read about it. but when you actually go through it….thats something completely different. the visual hallucinations. the borderline personality disorder. the depersonalization-derealization disorder. its all….i dont have any words for it. and maybe im missing something but no one else here talks about it. its all depression and anxiety. am i that broken? should i just die? am i that far gone that i cant be saved?
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I can’t help with the visual hallucinations but this might help you, you’ve often written that your primary objective for visiting SP is to help others, last June my favourite SP member committed suicide and you were right there with her at the end metaphorically holding her hand, I like to think she didn’t die alone in that respect, you tried to talk her back from the brink but she was adamant to go. I arrived too late under the influence but you were alert and sober, so she had someone to communicate with before the fatal act, so you have helped others!
you mean spooki?
Sadly yes
im honestly surprised you had a nice word to say to me after our argument
That arguments history. I’m suicidal you’re suicidal, why be at loggerheads? What you did for spooki was remarkable, she eased of gently.
maybe you arent such a bad person :P.
i was just doing what id want someone to do for me