When my boyfriend broke up with me, he used the excuse of my mental health 🙂
He told me that if i began seeking help and worked on fixing myself we could get back together. I don’t know why I tried to fix things with him, I was so unhappy with the way he treated me and not to mention cheating on me with two different girls.
We continued hook up even though it broke me because it made me feel like he wanted me. After a month of trying to fix me he broke things off and it came out that he was leading me on and never intended to get back with me.
Now, 9 months without him, I am so extremely disapptioned in past me for putting up with the horrible shit he put me through.
I’ve never told anyone this, and it hurts by putting it out there because it makes it feel more real. He raped me, more than once, and what makes it worse is after it happened he went on about how bad he felt for it, he would cry and manipulate me; in the end I ended up comforting him for raping me. I didn’t realise how shit he treated me after he ended things.
I have always struggled to put out what’s going on inside my head and how I’m feeling but for some reason it’s so easy here.